the times are changin'

i had such an odd sense memory yesterday. i was walking across campus, thoroughly enjoying the sweet foretaste of fall weather, and listening to paramore. i felt almost physically transported back to fall of freshman year. i also felt emotionally as if i were there again. i began not only remembering but re-feeling emotions, good and bad, of that fall. if you know me well, you know that that fall was one full of extremes: joy and despair, best and worst. i'm not entirely certain how i feel about the experience. i have noticed, however, that i have grown increasingly nostalgic since the experience. not just nostalgic but also regretful. you know, winthrop, i don't think i'm quite ready to be done with you. (that statement BLOWS my mind.) and i'm not sure what to do with you. i am so ready to leave yet i am not. i am so ready to move on but i am not. yikes.