cheating

day 59 of project 365
i know i'm not a mother yet, but there is so much in this blog that completely applies to me just being a teacher and a wife, too, that i found it encouraging. so i'm cheating a little bit, but today's post is someone else's blog.

from finding joy, "dear sweet mom who feels like she's failing."

this is not the end

day 58 of project 365

i know this job is not the same calibre of "suffering" as many experience everyday. but this job teaches me my weaknesses every. single. day. it's very overwhelming. i am not fit in and of myself for my profession. it is proven to me over and over again, which i'm thinking now is part of why i am here for now. there is desperate longing in my heart for what is to come after this season. i want so much to have a job where i feel as though i flourish not just survive, to feel like i have freedom to move out of the state of south carolina, to have a baby. my theme song this week has been gungor's "this is not the end." this weakness, these longings, they are not the end. and as i endure the trials and i endure the longing, i am joining in with creation groaning for the day that everything will be restored, everything will be put back into place, everything will be the way it's supposed to be. the lie i must not believe is that once my four year debt is paid to the state of south carolina that everything will be set right. if that's what i begin to believe i will truly always be miserable and unsatisfied. i must live today, hoping for that restoration that will come when the King returns. maybe you think i am reacting too intensely. maybe it's too much. but this is the way in which God has chosen to break me of self-reliance and to trust Him alone for power and strength. sometimes i feel like a big whiney baby, but i know that there is more at work here than me being a weakling who can't handle it. this season of pruning and refinement is not about the job. it all comes back to the gospel. it always does. also, can i be honest? anyone who thinks teaching is an easy job needs to try to teach 30 teenagers in one classroom that they should be respectful audience members or that theatre is worthwhile and relevant to their lives or that it's really not your fault that they have to take your class even though they didn't sign up for it.

you have to read this passage and listen to the song at the same time.

from romans 8
18 For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worth comparing with the glory that is to be revealed to us. 19 For the creation waits with eager longing for the revealing of the sons of God. 20 For the creation was subjected to futility, not willingly, but because of him who subjected it, in hope 21 that the creation itself will be set free from its bondage to corruption and obtain the freedom of the glory of the children of God. 22 For we know that the whole creation has been groaning together in the pains of childbirth until now. 23 And not only the creation, but we ourselves, who have the firstfruits of the Spirit, groan inwardly as we wait eagerly for adoption as sons, the redemption of our bodies. 24 For in this hope we were saved. Now hope that is seen is not hope. For who hopes for what he sees? 25 But if we hope for what we do not see, we wait for it with patience.
26 Likewise the Spirit helps us in our weakness. For we do not know what to pray for as we ought, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groanings too deep for words. 27 And he who searches hearts knows what is the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for the saints according to the will of God.

still on a "sabbatical"

day 57 (sort of) of project 365
these two weeks have been rough, i'm not going to lie to you. it's probably good i have not had internet at home because i might have vented on here too much. we still do not have internet at home, so project 365 will have to wait another week or so. until then, have a lovely day/week.

overwhelmed

day 55

we now have electricity, but we still don't have internet in our apartment. i will hopefully be able to get some new photos of our new place soon.

day 54

we don't have electricity in our new apartment right now. we also won't have internet for a week or two. blogging may be sparse.

transition

day 53 of project 365
today:

1. i woke up at 6am
2. i went to work-related event from 8 to 4
3. we got keys for our new apartment
4. we moved all our stuff stored at my dad's into the apartment

my new favorite tv show

day 52 of project 365

day 51 of project 365

i don't have anything to say. except that, i.e. the fact that i have nothing to say.

in honor of the olympics

day 50 of project 365
in honor of the olympics we are watching this movie. a childhood favorite.

first day of class powerpoint

day 49 or project 365
my 1st day of drama 1 powerpoint; has class rules, policies, procedures, etc. basically the syllabus in grueling detail. in case anyone wants to steal some of it, i've put a link at the bottom to the actual powerpoint that you can edit. i'm also adding a link to my course syllabus, too!

i'm going to play a funny cat video or something and let them stand/stretch for a moment

can you tell what some of my overwhelming pet peeves are? haha.

here is the fully editable copy of my first day powerpoint

here is the fully editable copy of my drama 1 course syllabus

drama 1 course syllabus

day 48 of project 365
this is a taste of what i've been working on

sky

day 47 of project 365